Have You Ever Played 'Chicken' with the Universe? | Ep. 05

Surrendering to the universe isn't easy... in fact, it's pretty scary.

It might even seem like you're playing a game of chicken with fate.

That’s what it feels like right now. I’m staring down the uncomfortable barrel of a dark one lane freeway tunnel driving 90. There’s some headlights ahead, and my ego is telling me to turn the goddamned wheel. What the hell are you doing?

“Bro, trust me, go YOLO at a beach party where you can drink unlimited white claws and hang out with tanned beach babes frolicking in the sand. It’s 2021 for goodness sake! You’re not getting any younger!

Quit trying to kill us both!!”

And the ego keeps screaming.

My legs are shaking.

I don’t want to keep going forward.

But I have nowhere to go back to.

I have burned my boats.

I’ve annihilated my past identity.

I refuse to settle for the scraps from the table I used to have, no matter how easy they were.

And the headlights that mean a full, crushing death to my ego and the life I once had draw slowly, painfully closer.

It’s me and the universe now.

I’ll be damned if I go home without a miracle. So I’m gunning forward with nothing to lose.